"Quit Now" Challenge Entry

Steven — Thu, 07 Dec 2006 08:14:00 GMT

I want to quit because I hate having anything addictive control my life. Through my experiences growing up and suffering through stress, I truly believe I am the only one that controls my life and somehow, to me, that explains most of life's mysteries. As cliché as it sounds, I want to know that I control my destiny.

I have grown up fighting addiction with other vices, a fight that has made me extremely tired and made me lose sight of who I am. These addictions made me feel like less of a man, a feeling that I dread. I want to be a better man for my family, friends, and people who will be in my life in the future. Someone who they can look at and be proud in every single way.

That is why I refuse to let something like a cigarette controls my actions every day. Something so small and disgusting should not have any precedence over my daily life. I do not want to wake up and have the need to light that first drag. I do not want to eat and have the urge to digest with cancer smoke. I do not want to do anything and have a cigarette control my thoughts in the back of my head. I know I am stronger than this and I know by quitting my addiction, I will take back my life, my destiny and most importantly, my ability to choose. I write this in anger, but it’s an anger that will be used in a positive way.

I hate being weak, I hate being controlled, and I finally, I will do something about it.

Steven Kim

"Quit Now" Challenge Entry