http://1800quitnow.cancer.gov/blogs/stevenkim/atom.aspxCommunity Server2006-12-07T11:14:00Zhttp://1800quitnow.cancer.gov/blogs/stevenkim/archive/2006/12/07/quit-now-challenge-entry.aspx2006-12-07T08:14:00Z2006-12-07T08:14:00Z<P>I want to quit because I hate having anything addictive control my life. Through my experiences growing up and suffering through stress, I truly believe I am the only one that controls my life and somehow, to me, that explains most of life's mysteries. As cliché as it sounds, I want to know that I control my destiny. </P> <P>I have grown up fighting addiction with other vices, a fight that has made me extremely tired and made me lose sight of who I am. These addictions made me feel like less of a man, a feeling that I dread. I want to be a better man for my family, friends, and people who will be in my life in the future. Someone who they can look at and be proud in every single way. </P> <P>That is why I refuse to let something like a cigarette controls my actions every day. Something so small and disgusting should not have any precedence over my daily life. I do not want to wake up and have the need to light that first drag. I do not want to eat and have the urge to digest with cancer smoke. I do not want to do anything and have a cigarette control my thoughts in the back of my head. I know I am stronger than this and I know by quitting my addiction, I will take back my life, my destiny and most importantly, my ability to choose. I write this in anger, but it’s an anger that will be used in a positive way.</P> <P>I hate being weak, I hate being controlled, and I finally, I will do something about it. </P><img src="http://1800quitnow.cancer.gov/blogs/aggbug.aspx?PostID=14" width="1" height="1">Stevenhttp://1800quitnow.cancer.gov/blogs/members/Steven.aspx