I didn't receive my patches until Tuesday, they came Monday, but I was at work and could not sign for them.  Tuesday evening around 10 I sat down and read the book that came with the patches, and decided after reading it that I would stick the patch on right before I went to bed, considering the morning is my worst craving of all.  So I smoke one more cigerette, then stuck the patch on and went to bed.  The next morning when I woke up, I was thinking about having a cig real bad, but I didn't have a craving, there is a huge difference of craving and wanting.  I decided to leave a pack of unopened cigerettes in my house for a mind stradegy for me.  Not only do I have to quit, but my mind needs to quit to.  Everytime I think about a cigerette, I think about that pack, I will not allow my self to open it.  I think that is helping me the most because for the the last 3 days of being on the patch, I have figured out that it is a lot of mind thing to me than a craving.  I know this because the first day of being cigerette free, about 2 hours before I was supposed supposed to put a new patch on, I started craving one.  That was the first craving I had.  But that whole day, all I could think about is a cigerette.  The first day of being cig free, me and my 4 year old son sat down to watch Spiderman, one of his favorite movies out of a dozen favorites, and I looked at him and said; "I quit smoking today!"  If you could've only seen the excitement in his face, it was completely awesome!!!!!!!!!!!  I have tried quiting several times in the past,"cold turkey", and it has never lasted longer than 8 hours or so, give or take.  I have anxiety issues, along with being obsessive, and I could'nt handle it.  I have found in the last three days, surprisingly, that I have been more patient with my children, and more focused, WOW!!!  Who would've ever thought?  I figured I would be very unpatient.  I really thing it is going to work for me this time!!!!  I came to work and asked my boss to please be patient with me if I become irritable, and he asked why?  Believe it or not, I work in a law firm, there are only 4 other employees that work here with me, none of them even knew I smoked.  I guess that has helped me to, I have worked here for about 5 months, and I have been going with out cigs the whole day, expect in the mornings before work, my lunch hour, and after work.  But I haven't been to irritable.  Yesterday wasn't to bad either, but I still had cigerette's on my mind all day.  Every time I thought about a cigerette, I chewed on a soft pepperming stick and sunflower seeds.  Now today is day 3, and I am doing much better.  To be honest I haven't even thought about a cigerette until I started writing this blog and talking about them.  I am proud of my self, and my mom keeps asking me how it's going and I tell her good, she is amazed and keeps telling me good job.  That feels good, to be complimented on it, by a smoker none the less.  She wants to quit to, and with her being so inquizit (sp) about how I am doing, I think she is close to doing it her self.  I keep pushing the quitline on her.  She was to old to be in this contest, because she did apply, so that means she wants to.  I think being rejected may have been a little push back for her, but I am going to keep pushing her until she does it.  She promised she was going to go to a hypnotist after Christmas.  Well see.  Well I will write again on Monday.  Today is Friday, and I will spend the weekend with my two boys, and packing.  Good luck to all of you!!!!!!